Sunday, December 15, 2013

Slap

Always separate 
Although my thoughts differ 
But it did not matter 
Always thought 
Two souls 
Connective as well
The good, the bad
Happy and sad 
All shared as one
No lies 
No hurt that damaged one another 
Just a constant fight 
To keep us alive
That was my idea of love 

That changed 
With your actions proven so clear and filled with shame

Ah my idea of love 
Ah love 


Friday, November 1, 2013

Bhool chukey

Apney aap ko na dekhna

Ushi puranay dard ko dawa hee dou

Mujhey apnay aap say juda kar key

Tum apney aap ko hee bhool chukhey hoo



Bhool gaye ho key hum koun thay

Bhool gaye ho humarey pyaar ko

Bhool gaye ho meri imiyat ko

Buss bhool gaye ho tum apna app ko 



Itna bara dhoka dey kar

Aise hee chaltey rahe

Ek dafa bhi soocha na tha 

Bhool hee gaye meri saya bhi tum



Wapis jab aye tum 

Rokney ka khwab bhi nahi rakha

Atey jatey kitna mujh sey leya

Jao tumhey hum ab batain kya



Ab jo tum aa hee gaye ho 

Buss itna samaj lo 

Daard say bani hon mein ab 

Apney ap ko mita diya tumhari tabahi ney jo



Pal bhaar pyaar aur izaat hee mangti hoon mein 

Aur kya jeeney key liyeh poochti hoon

Par afsoos key tum woh pyaar hee bhool gaye

Afsoos key larney ki takat nahi hai meray liyeh ab

Afsoos key tum hee ney daba kar 

Sab hee sab tum bhool hee gaye ho 




Thursday, October 10, 2013

You will

In that moment when you lay eyes on the one you feel is yours 
And that feeling takes over you completely
Youll start to smile with just the thought 
Of how your life is going to change 
All your happiness will flash before your eyes
But in that moment youll stop and think 
Youll miss me. 

The first time you meet her in a crowd
Youll be breath taken by the presence of her 
But even that moment will be stolen 
With the thought of missing me 

The gitters you get everytime your near her 
Her smell will wipe you off your feet 
One smile will cradle all your souls 
But even then 
You will miss me 

The first time you hold her hand 
Youll feel absolutely complete 
But soon youll flinch and let go 
Because baby youll be thinking of me

The minute you look in to her eyes
And as a smile softly runs across your lips 
Youll suddenly feel empty and you will be craving more 
Youll be searching for me 

When you pull her close and move forward to kiss her 
You wont be able to feel
And everytime you think of moving closer 
Youll miss me 

Everytime you see her and wish you could tell her you love her 
Youll stop and ponder
Because youll see my face within you , see my face on her 
And baby youll be missing me 

The day you change and you areyour  absolute self 
Youll still feel empty 
A void unfilled
There will be an ache
Youll be missing me 

The time you realize shes the one 
Youll promise her words you may end up keeping 
But your words will feel hollow 
Because youll think of nothing more than fhe promises you broke from me 

The day you kneel down on one knee to give yourself to her
Youll try to put it words of what your feeling 
Try to look up and see her
And when you do 
Youll be reminded of what i said to u 
Youll realize its not me 

The day she tells you shes pregnant 
Youll be rushing with memories of our dreams together 
And the minute you hold your baby for the first time 
There be a vaccum within you 
Because it wont look or feel like me 

Your life from then onwards 
Will be a constant reminder of us and what it could have been 
And youll burn with regret and guilt 
As your life moves on 
With a constant ache of the lacking of me and i assure you 
You will constantly miss me 

When your grey and old 
And have ur last days at ur end 
Youll wish you could take it all back
Because of your ongoing empty unfulling life without me
Maybe id be gone by then
And youll come to my grave and weep 
Youll wish for death faster 
With the hope of another chance with me 
But you lost me while i was living 
And youll never have me in the hereafter 
And that pain will make you miss me 
That need for peace within me
Will haunt you and constantly have you thinking about me 

And baby one thing is certain 
Every second 
Every breath 
In every beat of your existance 
You will most definitely miss me !! 






Wednesday, October 9, 2013

within the love

if i could
ill wrap myself
within the thoughts
off how it once was
the feelings of how it felt
to be around your smell
the way your presence
made my soul drown with extreme intensity
the way one look
sank my heart
and how ur smile
cleared my troubles dry
but now when i think of us
im clouded by thoughts
of lies and deciet
constant clashing of my heart
of what it was to me
and how it really was!
but how would it be
if i could
just for a moment
live within the love
i thought we stood for

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

uf yeh dunya aur dunya key log!



sab khethe thay
kay mujh mein woh baath nahi
dunya say dur ho kay
apnay mein jeenay lage
akele pan mein wishwas kiya
na kohi apna dunya mein rakha
na kohi apna apno mein raha
phir ek shaksh
aandharon say nikala
darti khamooshi ko phir say awaaz diya
purana kal bhula kar
anay wala kal ko dhum diya
itna pyar paya
kay yakeen hee nahi ho sakha
dunya hee say woh aya
aur meray andharay ko rung diya
salon sal us key angrahi mein nachti rahi mein
chor diya apney ap ko uski sansoos key liyeh
pal mein jo pyar diya
jo izzat di
jo takat di
ek hee japat mein badal diya
na raha woh pyar
na rahi woh izat
jis takat say mei ney zindagi bani
usi takat ko usne barbat kar diya
chor diya usney mujhey
dunya hee key liye
aur aaj woh chilata hai
kay muj mein woh baath hi nahi
kay mein uss key khabal hee nahi!

Monday, June 3, 2013

still under progress

what are we but mere clay models
stretched above us is the flesh that covers our true self
but beyond the flesh and muscles
the tissues and veins
lays the organs of whispers
each beating along their own drumming rhythm

what makes us mere humans
beyond the ordinary
our emotions, our mind,
the rushing of different sensations
the love we brood over
the hurt we hide through smiles
the happiness we exuberate
the hope and wishes of our dreams
fiercely crashing against lifes realities

yet within all the miracles
that God has so kindly bestowed upon us
miracles beyond our imagination
un touched, un appreciated
we forget all that has been blessed upon us
and focus on that wrath of what pulls us down
digging us deeper in to our pit of waste

like a whirl wind of chaos and commotion
we whirl around the negatives and down falls
forgetting that beyond the twist and turns
a new breeze is born
over and over

but this mere human
forgetting all her pain
has tried to focus on all that lifts her spirits
and holds on to it
like a child holds on to her mothers finger
in the very first contact of her new beating life

how awful it is
to wake up with a new found thought
with a urge of intense need
and have it be unaswered
have it be ignored

how much do we mere humans
possessing such immense volcanic emotions
take simple treasures for granted
and how we miss them
when there slated from our hearts
and thrown away 

Sunday, April 28, 2013

be the change


To all those deceits and liars,
A lesson is to be learned,
And if you by pass it,
It’ll be unfortunate for your souls.

You walk in to someone’s life,
And build up your charm,
You show them a side to you,
And woo them till there yours.

You say all the right things,
And do all the right actions,
To get them to fall deeply for you,
And when there hooked, you slowly pull aloof.

But you see within all that wooing,
You still seem to test,
Even though you have the greater possibility,
Of sucking them dry from their chest.

Still they trust you,
And they create a world for you two,
They hope and pray for the days to come closer,
When you will, forever sweep them off their feet, and say i do. 

And then all of a sudden,
Everything changes,
The love you so openly proclaimed to have,
Slowly diminishes.

You walk out at every conversation,
You leave them alone to cry,
You do not bother to turn back once,
You disappear from their lives.

They wait in pain and hope,
That one day you will return,
They lock themselves up,
Until, you can finally get them out.

You, on the other hand are living up your life,
Keeping everyone close who could tear up your loves pride,
Your love calls and messages but you are too occupied to care,
Because your selfishness is now at its peak, you cannot give up yet.

Months pass, and there is no word from you,
No thought about the one you’ve left,
As you drink and merry,
She is completely lost and in despair.

And then one day, after all those months of silence,
You decide you want to fix it with the one you left so viciously behind,
And you walk back in her life,
To see her at the same place as she was when you last were at her side.

It still takes you a few weeks to decide this is where you want to be,
And you come back in her life,
Knowing she will obviously take you back,
And you promise words and actions you know you will never keep.

You do not seem to notice,
That those months you left her and went astray,
Have shaken the very core off her,
Changed her, made her life less, and made her soul decay.

But you know even with all that,
She still has hope for you both,
And you use that for your benefit,
And you promise for things to change and for you to be true.

But if you really cared,
She would get out of the pain you gave her,
Yet you act as the victim,
And fight and walk off each chance you make yourself.

Your guilt is rolling,
And to make yourself feel better,
You tell her you are trying,
And she is not being open.

After months of you treating her like trash,
You try for a day,
And you are back on your old tracks,
Constantly walking away.

But you see, you deceits, you liars,
Why do you not feel,
The pain you have given her,
Can you really not feel?

You took months of repetitive behavior to kill her spirit,
And one day you try and she should succumb to your needs,
She fought for you, even when you were least bothered with her,
And you cry over trying just one day, and keep your heart closed, and you above her needs.

Do you really think one day can heal her?
That one day of you being who she used to know will cure her?
Stop playing the victim,
For ONCE, fight for her.

I will tell you off a boy, just like you,
Who did what he did,
And he slowly let her go,
You know what happened to the one he forgot,
She tried even though he had already given up.

She cried all night,
And hurt herself in ways hell never feel,
He was so blind to the hurt he gave her,
He did not even let her heal.

So she slowly gave up,
On herself, on her life,
And just when he thought he did the right thing by walking away,
She brutally gave up her life.

The hope he gave her,
He took it away each chance he got,
He blamed her, tortured her,
And he did it with complete ignorance.

So change who you are,
Before you promise the world,
Change your ways of being,
When,you are truly in love with someone.

Because they will fight for you,
No matter what you may do,
But the question really starts at,
Would you fight for them too?

Monday, January 28, 2013

to fudail with love



I don't need no arms around me.
And I don't need no drugs to calm me.
I have seen the writing on the wall.
Don't think I'll need anything at all.
All in all it you have just built thick unbreakable hollow brick walls.