Wednesday, October 9, 2013

within the love

if i could
ill wrap myself
within the thoughts
off how it once was
the feelings of how it felt
to be around your smell
the way your presence
made my soul drown with extreme intensity
the way one look
sank my heart
and how ur smile
cleared my troubles dry
but now when i think of us
im clouded by thoughts
of lies and deciet
constant clashing of my heart
of what it was to me
and how it really was!
but how would it be
if i could
just for a moment
live within the love
i thought we stood for

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

uf yeh dunya aur dunya key log!



sab khethe thay
kay mujh mein woh baath nahi
dunya say dur ho kay
apnay mein jeenay lage
akele pan mein wishwas kiya
na kohi apna dunya mein rakha
na kohi apna apno mein raha
phir ek shaksh
aandharon say nikala
darti khamooshi ko phir say awaaz diya
purana kal bhula kar
anay wala kal ko dhum diya
itna pyar paya
kay yakeen hee nahi ho sakha
dunya hee say woh aya
aur meray andharay ko rung diya
salon sal us key angrahi mein nachti rahi mein
chor diya apney ap ko uski sansoos key liyeh
pal mein jo pyar diya
jo izzat di
jo takat di
ek hee japat mein badal diya
na raha woh pyar
na rahi woh izat
jis takat say mei ney zindagi bani
usi takat ko usne barbat kar diya
chor diya usney mujhey
dunya hee key liye
aur aaj woh chilata hai
kay muj mein woh baath hi nahi
kay mein uss key khabal hee nahi!

Monday, June 3, 2013

still under progress

what are we but mere clay models
stretched above us is the flesh that covers our true self
but beyond the flesh and muscles
the tissues and veins
lays the organs of whispers
each beating along their own drumming rhythm

what makes us mere humans
beyond the ordinary
our emotions, our mind,
the rushing of different sensations
the love we brood over
the hurt we hide through smiles
the happiness we exuberate
the hope and wishes of our dreams
fiercely crashing against lifes realities

yet within all the miracles
that God has so kindly bestowed upon us
miracles beyond our imagination
un touched, un appreciated
we forget all that has been blessed upon us
and focus on that wrath of what pulls us down
digging us deeper in to our pit of waste

like a whirl wind of chaos and commotion
we whirl around the negatives and down falls
forgetting that beyond the twist and turns
a new breeze is born
over and over

but this mere human
forgetting all her pain
has tried to focus on all that lifts her spirits
and holds on to it
like a child holds on to her mothers finger
in the very first contact of her new beating life

how awful it is
to wake up with a new found thought
with a urge of intense need
and have it be unaswered
have it be ignored

how much do we mere humans
possessing such immense volcanic emotions
take simple treasures for granted
and how we miss them
when there slated from our hearts
and thrown away 

Sunday, April 28, 2013

be the change


To all those deceits and liars,
A lesson is to be learned,
And if you by pass it,
It’ll be unfortunate for your souls.

You walk in to someone’s life,
And build up your charm,
You show them a side to you,
And woo them till there yours.

You say all the right things,
And do all the right actions,
To get them to fall deeply for you,
And when there hooked, you slowly pull aloof.

But you see within all that wooing,
You still seem to test,
Even though you have the greater possibility,
Of sucking them dry from their chest.

Still they trust you,
And they create a world for you two,
They hope and pray for the days to come closer,
When you will, forever sweep them off their feet, and say i do. 

And then all of a sudden,
Everything changes,
The love you so openly proclaimed to have,
Slowly diminishes.

You walk out at every conversation,
You leave them alone to cry,
You do not bother to turn back once,
You disappear from their lives.

They wait in pain and hope,
That one day you will return,
They lock themselves up,
Until, you can finally get them out.

You, on the other hand are living up your life,
Keeping everyone close who could tear up your loves pride,
Your love calls and messages but you are too occupied to care,
Because your selfishness is now at its peak, you cannot give up yet.

Months pass, and there is no word from you,
No thought about the one you’ve left,
As you drink and merry,
She is completely lost and in despair.

And then one day, after all those months of silence,
You decide you want to fix it with the one you left so viciously behind,
And you walk back in her life,
To see her at the same place as she was when you last were at her side.

It still takes you a few weeks to decide this is where you want to be,
And you come back in her life,
Knowing she will obviously take you back,
And you promise words and actions you know you will never keep.

You do not seem to notice,
That those months you left her and went astray,
Have shaken the very core off her,
Changed her, made her life less, and made her soul decay.

But you know even with all that,
She still has hope for you both,
And you use that for your benefit,
And you promise for things to change and for you to be true.

But if you really cared,
She would get out of the pain you gave her,
Yet you act as the victim,
And fight and walk off each chance you make yourself.

Your guilt is rolling,
And to make yourself feel better,
You tell her you are trying,
And she is not being open.

After months of you treating her like trash,
You try for a day,
And you are back on your old tracks,
Constantly walking away.

But you see, you deceits, you liars,
Why do you not feel,
The pain you have given her,
Can you really not feel?

You took months of repetitive behavior to kill her spirit,
And one day you try and she should succumb to your needs,
She fought for you, even when you were least bothered with her,
And you cry over trying just one day, and keep your heart closed, and you above her needs.

Do you really think one day can heal her?
That one day of you being who she used to know will cure her?
Stop playing the victim,
For ONCE, fight for her.

I will tell you off a boy, just like you,
Who did what he did,
And he slowly let her go,
You know what happened to the one he forgot,
She tried even though he had already given up.

She cried all night,
And hurt herself in ways hell never feel,
He was so blind to the hurt he gave her,
He did not even let her heal.

So she slowly gave up,
On herself, on her life,
And just when he thought he did the right thing by walking away,
She brutally gave up her life.

The hope he gave her,
He took it away each chance he got,
He blamed her, tortured her,
And he did it with complete ignorance.

So change who you are,
Before you promise the world,
Change your ways of being,
When,you are truly in love with someone.

Because they will fight for you,
No matter what you may do,
But the question really starts at,
Would you fight for them too?

Monday, January 28, 2013

to fudail with love



I don't need no arms around me.
And I don't need no drugs to calm me.
I have seen the writing on the wall.
Don't think I'll need anything at all.
All in all it you have just built thick unbreakable hollow brick walls.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

a choice made!

When all else fails you,
little changes do not help please you.
They do not satisfy what you are feeling
and they do not help over come what you are going through...
When you pull yourself down so low and your still alone...
When you give yourself completely, eradicate every nerve in your body to belong and yet you do not ever belong...
When you put yourself out there in ways you never thought you could.
When you let go of everything you believe to avoid clashes,
and when its still unnoticed and not appreciated...
That is when you just give up.. All else has failed.
There is no turning back
and there is no going forward.
This story follows such a trauma..


she met him when she had nothing,
when she was down in the dumps.
The only thing she had was what she built within herself.
From being completely lost she had rewoven her soul so that no one else could and would ever touch her again.
Ah but such a life was not planned for her.
God had a different path in mind for what had to happen..
And so it did!

Thursday, November 1, 2012

30th october 2012


siraf lafzoon ki zaroot kahan mujhey jaan,aur kitni khamooshi mein khushi doondhoo mein,khamooshi say zakum nahi mithey,jab lafzoon ki takat toot jati hai.

.....lafzoon ki kamzoori jab mith jati hai,tab harkatoon hee yakeen baan jata hai,par jab harkatoon ka asar beewafi mein khil ja tha hai,tu phir kiss darmiya say wishwaas loon mein.

.....jab har pukar adhoori rey jati hai,jab har pyaar ka shab jhoota diklta hai,jab meri har ek saas mein meri jaan ko takat hee na dikhay,tu phir kiss pyaar ki hifazaat karoon mein.