sun and moon - the story of love, despair, hope that lead to death

Once upon a time 

the sun and moon were born 

each not knowing they are their better halves 

each set to look for the other with the vast variety of natures gifts 

they both longed for the feeling of fulfillment and although they shun their light on all they touched 

their was still a desperate ache looking for more 

searching for something they knew was apart of them

years passed and the tradition of the sun coming up in the morning and passing down mid evening never changed

as the moon shined its light from evening to dawn 

but not once did there paths truly cross 

not once did they consider one another to be their better halves. 

but one still evening as the sun was drowning 

his light dimmed 

he caught a glimpse of the moon rising and he had never seen a beauty so overpowering 

the sun had heard of the moons complete abundance over the sky 

but he had never paid much attention to whispers and cries 

and in that moment he knew he had to be closer to his moon 

the parallel of nature was being defied 

the sun would hesitate a little while 

just to catch a glimpse of his moon every night 

she filled him in ways he could not describe.

The Gods were angered by the suns ways 

they called upon thunderstorms and hail 

but still the sun did not come apart 

you see his light was set on his moon 

he had fallen in love 

forgetting natures balance the sun picked up the courage 

he dimmed his true nature and set a sail to stand beside his darling 

and that is when the moon noticed the sun 

she was breath taken by his aura 

she was smitten by his courage 

and she knew at once what he felt too 

that she was made to run side by side with the sun, 

being the sun and the moon.

together they could take over what ever may come 

his light would guide them 

her bright gloom would comfort the dark strangers in the day and night

and thus began the love affair 

between

the sun and the moon.

every night the declaration  of love was seen by the world

they saw a constant eclipse when they looked up above 

but only the Gods knew what was truly happening below 

the sun and the moon had sworn to never leave each others light 

for once the Gods felt powerless 

Their anger was haunting it was slowly increasing 

but the lovers of the sky did not care a cent 

they swayed within the sky flaunting their love and how itll never end. 

In a flight of anger the Gods sent down the stars 

to taunt and manipulate this love carnival 

but the sun and moon were so over powered with each other 

the stars made no impact they had lost their essence. 

the Gods become furious they came up with a plan 

THEY BUILT THE WORLD AND NATURES EVERY STRAND 

we will wash it away its as simple as that 

weve been kind to these lovers

but this alas 

this will stop TONIGHT. 

The Gods called up on the sun and the moon

and they asked them a question 

if we put you away will your love survive

the test of separation 

NOTHING CAN TEAR US APART

the sun rose his light as he spoke

 weve found our better halves oh please be kind to us, said the moon to her Gods 

THEn this is how it will be the Gods commanded

each of you will return to how nature has made you 

and when the test is over and we feel your love is pure 

we promise you 

we will never set you apart 

a test so easy the sun spoke again 

i will wait for ever for my moon to come back to me again 

shine what you must on me THY GODS

i will not look away my moon is my life

together we will shine through night and day. 

the sun and moon kissed their goodbyes 

with the hope of one day shining again side by side. 

the sun was to not catch a glimpse of his moon 

nor were they to share a word as they crossed each other

and months and years passed and the sun did as he was told 

the moons light changed for she had been separated from the one she loved so dear 

and within this test something seemed changed 

the sun had found new comfort in the rainbow after rains 

the Gods called the moon in to show the play of the sun 

he had been dancing and laughing with the rainbows colours and charm

BUT THIS CANT BE TRUE

the moon shouted loud 

HE LOVES ME JUST SEND HIM BACK TO ME AND YOULL SEE ALL THIS IS UNTRUE

the Gods reminded the moon of the test that had been made 

the sun had broken his word he had fallen out of love with his mistress 

DONT SAY THAT PLEASE WERE MEANT TO BE the moon cried 

IT HAS BEEN DECIDED, the Gods shouted out

YOU AND HIM WILL NEVER SEE EYE TO EYE 

PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS MY LORDS , the moon begged 

GIVE ME ONE CHANCE TO PROVE THAT THE SUN HAS BEEN FAITHFUL 

the Gods decided a final test shall be made 

that the moon can come out when the sun lights the day 

but the moon will dim her light so its not obvious to the sun 

that the sun and moon are sharing the same sky 

and so the sun would come up in the day

he would shine his light all over

and blind himself with his bright ray for he was so taken by the colours of the rainbow 

that he did not seem to ever notice the moon and her dim glow

the moon darkened each year that passed 

from the bright white beauty she had black scars 

scars that reminded her of the suns deceit 

scars that still show if you look at the moon closely. 

but the sun still remains as bright as before 

his light shine upon us brighter than before. 

the Gods punished the moon for the suns doings 

and now the moon is out in the day and the night 

but her light is dimmed when the sun is out

the sun never noticed her not till today 

and maybe one day the sun will notice that dark light 

and hell realize its the moon he had promised to love all his life 

but till that does happen the moon is losing her light 

she is tattered and torn and filled with blackened scars

only we can see in the night

Slap

Always separate 

Although my thoughts differ 

But it did not matter 

Always thought 

Two souls 

Connective as well

The good, the bad

Happy and sad 

All shared as one

No lies 

No hurt that damaged one another 

Just a constant fight 

To keep us alive

That was my idea of love 

That changed 

With your actions proven so clear and filled with shame

Ah my idea of love 

Ah love 

Bhool chukey

Apney aap ko na dekhna

Ushi puranay dard ko dawa hee dou

Mujhey apnay aap say juda kar key

Tum apney aap ko hee bhool chukhey hoo

Bhool gaye ho key hum koun thay

Bhool gaye ho humarey pyaar ko

Bhool gaye ho meri imiyat ko

Buss bhool gaye ho tum apna app ko 

Itna bara dhoka dey kar

Aise hee chaltey rahe

Ek dafa bhi soocha na tha 

Bhool hee gaye meri saya bhi tum

Wapis jab aye tum 

Rokney ka khwab bhi nahi rakha

Atey jatey kitna mujh sey leya

Jao tumhey hum ab batain kya

Ab jo tum aa hee gaye ho 

Buss itna samaj lo 

Daard say bani hon mein ab 

Apney ap ko mita diya tumhari tabahi ney jo

Pal bhaar pyaar aur izaat hee mangti hoon mein 

Aur kya jeeney key liyeh poochti hoon

Par afsoos key tum woh pyaar hee bhool gaye

Afsoos key larney ki takat nahi hai meray liyeh ab

Afsoos key tum hee ney daba kar 

Sab hee sab tum bhool hee gaye ho 

You will

In that moment when you lay eyes on the one you feel is yours 

And that feeling takes over you completely

Youll start to smile with just the thought 

Of how your life is going to change 

All your happiness will flash before your eyes

But in that moment youll stop and think 

Youll miss me. 

The first time you meet her in a crowd

Youll be breath taken by the presence of her 

But even that moment will be stolen 

With the thought of missing me 

The gitters you get everytime your near her 

Her smell will wipe you off your feet 

One smile will cradle all your souls 

But even then 

You will miss me 

The first time you hold her hand 

Youll feel absolutely complete 

But soon youll flinch and let go 

Because baby youll be thinking of me

The minute you look in to her eyes

And as a smile softly runs across your lips 

Youll suddenly feel empty and you will be craving more 

Youll be searching for me 

When you pull her close and move forward to kiss her 

You wont be able to feel

And everytime you think of moving closer 

Youll miss me 

Everytime you see her and wish you could tell her you love her 

Youll stop and ponder

Because youll see my face within you , see my face on her 

And baby youll be missing me 

The day you change and you areyour  absolute self 

Youll still feel empty 

A void unfilled

There will be an ache

Youll be missing me 

The time you realize shes the one 

Youll promise her words you may end up keeping 

But your words will feel hollow 

Because youll think of nothing more than fhe promises you broke from me 

The day you kneel down on one knee to give yourself to her

Youll try to put it words of what your feeling 

Try to look up and see her

And when you do 

Youll be reminded of what i said to u 

Youll realize its not me 

The day she tells you shes pregnant 

Youll be rushing with memories of our dreams together 

And the minute you hold your baby for the first time 

There be a vaccum within you 

Because it wont look or feel like me 

Your life from then onwards 

Will be a constant reminder of us and what it could have been 

And youll burn with regret and guilt 

As your life moves on 

With a constant ache of the lacking of me and i assure you 

You will constantly miss me 

When your grey and old 

And have ur last days at ur end 

Youll wish you could take it all back

Because of your ongoing empty unfulling life without me

Maybe id be gone by then

And youll come to my grave and weep 

Youll wish for death faster 

With the hope of another chance with me 

But you lost me while i was living 

And youll never have me in the hereafter 

And that pain will make you miss me 

That need for peace within me

Will haunt you and constantly have you thinking about me 

And baby one thing is certain 

Every second 

Every breath 

In every beat of your existance 

You will most definitely miss me !! 

within the love

if i could
ill wrap myself
within the thoughts
off how it once was
the feelings of how it felt
to be around your smell
the way your presence
made my soul drown with extreme intensity
the way one look
sank my heart
and how ur smile
cleared my troubles dry
but now when i think of us
im clouded by thoughts
of lies and deciet
constant clashing of my heart
of what it was to me
and how it really was!
but how would it be
if i could
just for a moment
live within the love
i thought we stood for

uf yeh dunya aur dunya key log!

sab khethe thay
kay mujh mein woh baath nahi
dunya say dur ho kay
apnay mein jeenay lage
akele pan mein wishwas kiya
na kohi apna dunya mein rakha
na kohi apna apno mein raha
phir ek shaksh
aandharon say nikala
darti khamooshi ko phir say awaaz diya
purana kal bhula kar
anay wala kal ko dhum diya
itna pyar paya
kay yakeen hee nahi ho sakha
dunya hee say woh aya
aur meray andharay ko rung diya
salon sal us key angrahi mein nachti rahi mein
chor diya apney ap ko uski sansoos key liyeh
pal mein jo pyar diya
jo izzat di
jo takat di
ek hee japat mein badal diya
na raha woh pyar
na rahi woh izat
jis takat say mei ney zindagi bani
usi takat ko usne barbat kar diya
chor diya usney mujhey
dunya hee key liye
aur aaj woh chilata hai
kay muj mein woh baath hi nahi
kay mein uss key khabal hee nahi!

still under progress

what are we but mere clay models
stretched above us is the flesh that covers our true self
but beyond the flesh and muscles
the tissues and veins
lays the organs of whispers
each beating along their own drumming rhythm

what makes us mere humans
beyond the ordinary
our emotions, our mind,
the rushing of different sensations
the love we brood over
the hurt we hide through smiles
the happiness we exuberate
the hope and wishes of our dreams
fiercely crashing against lifes realities

yet within all the miracles
that God has so kindly bestowed upon us
miracles beyond our imagination
un touched, un appreciated
we forget all that has been blessed upon us
and focus on that wrath of what pulls us down
digging us deeper in to our pit of waste

like a whirl wind of chaos and commotion
we whirl around the negatives and down falls
forgetting that beyond the twist and turns
a new breeze is born
over and over

but this mere human
forgetting all her pain
has tried to focus on all that lifts her spirits
and holds on to it
like a child holds on to her mothers finger
in the very first contact of her new beating life

how awful it is
to wake up with a new found thought
with a urge of intense need
and have it be unaswered
have it be ignored

how much do we mere humans
possessing such immense volcanic emotions
take simple treasures for granted
and how we miss them
when there slated from our hearts
and thrown away 

be the change

To all those deceits and liars,

A lesson is to be learned,

And if you by pass it,

It’ll be unfortunate for your souls.

You walk in to someone’s life,

And build up your charm,

You show them a side to you,

And woo them till there yours.

You say all the right things,

And do all the right actions,

To get them to fall deeply for you,

And when there hooked, you slowly pull aloof.

But you see within all that wooing,

You still seem to test,

Even though you have the greater possibility,

Of sucking them dry from their chest.

Still they trust you,

And they create a world for you two,

They hope and pray for the days to come closer,

When you will, forever sweep them off their feet, and say i do. 

And then all of a sudden,

Everything changes,

The love you so openly proclaimed to have,

Slowly diminishes.

You walk out at every conversation,

You leave them alone to cry,

You do not bother to turn back once,

You disappear from their lives.

They wait in pain and hope,

That one day you will return,

They lock themselves up,

Until, you can finally get them out.

You, on the other hand are living up your life,

Keeping everyone close who could tear up your loves pride,

Your love calls and messages but you are too occupied to care,

Because your selfishness is now at its peak, you cannot give up yet.

Months pass, and there is no word from you,

No thought about the one you’ve left,

As you drink and merry,

She is completely lost and in despair.

And then one day, after all those months of silence,

You decide you want to fix it with the one you left so viciously behind,

And you walk back in her life,

To see her at the same place as she was when you last were at her side.

It still takes you a few weeks to decide this is where you want to be,

And you come back in her life,

Knowing she will obviously take you back,

And you promise words and actions you know you will never keep.

You do not seem to notice,

That those months you left her and went astray,

Have shaken the very core off her,

Changed her, made her life less, and made her soul decay.

But you know even with all that,

She still has hope for you both,

And you use that for your benefit,

And you promise for things to change and for you to be true.

But if you really cared,

She would get out of the pain you gave her,

Yet you act as the victim,

And fight and walk off each chance you make yourself.

Your guilt is rolling,

And to make yourself feel better,

You tell her you are trying,

And she is not being open.

After months of you treating her like trash,

You try for a day,

And you are back on your old tracks,

Constantly walking away.

But you see, you deceits, you liars,

Why do you not feel,

The pain you have given her,

Can you really not feel?

You took months of repetitive behavior to kill her spirit,

And one day you try and she should succumb to your needs,

She fought for you, even when you were least bothered with her,

And you cry over trying just one day, and keep your heart closed, and you above her needs.

Do you really think one day can heal her?

That one day of you being who she used to know will cure her?

Stop playing the victim,

For ONCE, fight for her.

I will tell you off a boy, just like you,

Who did what he did,

And he slowly let her go,

You know what happened to the one he forgot,

She tried even though he had already given up.

She cried all night,

And hurt herself in ways hell never feel,

He was so blind to the hurt he gave her,

He did not even let her heal.

So she slowly gave up,

On herself, on her life,

And just when he thought he did the right thing by walking away,

She brutally gave up her life.

The hope he gave her,

He took it away each chance he got,

He blamed her, tortured her,

And he did it with complete ignorance.

So change who you are,

Before you promise the world,

Change your ways of being,

When,you are truly in love with someone.

Because they will fight for you,

No matter what you may do,

But the question really starts at,

Would you fight for them too?

to fudail with love

I don't need no arms around me.
And I don't need no drugs to calm me.
I have seen the writing on the wall.
Don't think I'll need anything at all.
All in all it you have just built thick unbreakable hollow brick walls.

a choice made!

When all else fails you,
little changes do not help please you.
They do not satisfy what you are feeling
and they do not help over come what you are going through...
When you pull yourself down so low and your still alone...
When you give yourself completely, eradicate every nerve in your body to belong and yet you do not ever belong...
When you put yourself out there in ways you never thought you could.
When you let go of everything you believe to avoid clashes,
and when its still unnoticed and not appreciated...
That is when you just give up.. All else has failed.
There is no turning back
and there is no going forward.
This story follows such a trauma..


she met him when she had nothing,
when she was down in the dumps.
The only thing she had was what she built within herself.
From being completely lost she had rewoven her soul so that no one else could and would ever touch her again.
Ah but such a life was not planned for her.
God had a different path in mind for what had to happen..
And so it did!

30th october 2012

siraf lafzoon ki zaroot kahan mujhey jaan,aur kitni khamooshi mein khushi doondhoo mein,khamooshi say zakum nahi mithey,jab lafzoon ki takat toot jati hai.

.....lafzoon ki kamzoori jab mith jati hai,tab harkatoon hee yakeen baan jata hai,par jab harkatoon ka asar beewafi mein khil ja tha hai,tu phir kiss darmiya say wishwaas loon mein.

.....jab har pukar adhoori rey jati hai,jab har pyaar ka shab jhoota diklta hai,jab meri har ek saas mein meri jaan ko takat hee na dikhay,tu phir kiss pyaar ki hifazaat karoon mein. 

eyes wide opened yet shut

Words, 

Fall upon deaf ears. 

;

Love, 

That sparkles in ones eyes and yet is not shown. 

;

Promises, 

That take seconds to break us apart. 

;

Deceptive thoughts,  

That win over your mind without a turn or glance.

;

Truth, 

The kind you do not want to touch upon. 

;

Lies, 

That you bury yourself far in to deep under.

;

Hurt, 

That we cause between our souls. 

;

Barriers, 

Built because you are so damn unsure.

; 

Doubt, 

That fills you without any remorse. 

;

Disappointment, 

It seems is what your trying to look for. 

;

My heart, 

That I've surrendered so easily to you. 

;

Ignored, 

Because you don't seem to want it at all.